I started to reaslise I had so many rules of how i was supposed to life,. I decided to see them and acknowledge what I want regardless of culture.
I decided to acknowledge my should and do the work. I found this stage pretty hard, I had so many ideas of how it was better to live do recognize any of these such a tiny list
- Sleeping in or napping is lazy
- Wanting my own space is selfish
- I should always put others first – but for some reason they don’t have to put me first?
- I cant say no If a request is reasonable ( ah ha you can always say yes or no its your life and your body) and you will get the consequences of your actions.
- I should keep my house tidy at all times
- I should keep my children under control at all times
- I should have meal plans made in advance
- I should want to …..
- I have fully justify everytime I spend any money on myself or children
- To explain my movements in detail to my partner
Because I want to isn’t good enough.. (what bullshit )
I think this is on of the major lessons in my life, I started to unpack all those train track thoughts and decided to live consciously.Â
If I choose to do something I own it
If I do something then I take responsibly for my process and acknowledge the reasons for my choices.
I decided I am not interested in doing anything begrudgingly.Â
This has made me very congruent in my choices which means my internal alignment is strong and I have much less self doubt.Â
